Well I have been back from the Camino for over 4 months now. The memory is still clear in most places, but, like everything else, it fades away already. Some of it feels like a dream sometimes. I remember the people, but not some of the names. I remember the places, but not when I was there. Stranger still, I watch the pictures and for some of them, I have no clue of ever having been there.
I think I need to write a more detailed journal of some of the days, for prosperity if nothing else. I sometimes think I should keep a journal for everything I do these days. But who’s got time to take the time ? I say the Camino is worth it.
So, let’s say you want to go on the pilgrimage yourself. What can you expect ? I think Day 1 is fabulous in that it gives you an excellent glimpse at what’s in store for you. If you are to give up, it’s probably going to be on that first dreadful day. Dreadful seems too harsh. But as my friend Dale said, it’s the most excruciating day of my life. That holds true even if some days were harder. Your body does adjust after a few days.
I propose you take a look at some pictures I put here, as you read.
So here we are, or were if you’ll forgive me the use of present tense, in St-Jean-pied-de-Port, France. May 10th 2007. I’ll mostly skip “Day 0″ where we traveled by bus and train to get there from Bordeaux. Interesting day, but that’s all. Day 1 has me and Dale waking up in this quite pretty albergue in the village, a few doors down from the registration office where we got all our papers (pilgrim passport, elevation maps for the trip, etc.). The albergue is fairly quiet actually. We slept in a room with 5 other people, including an australian lady who is definitly not ashamed of her body. Oh not naked, but a nun would have fainted, let’s keep it at that.
Pleasant people, including a young French couple who are on their last day on the road, having walked from Belgium. They sing the pilgrim chant which I have heard online before, but feels strange to hear in person, especially a few minutes before our great departure. The albergue is offering breakfast in the price of the night (8 Euros I think), which is light but not bad. Getting our gears ready, we stop around the corner to get some ham and bread for our lunch later, as this is a LONG day without much places to stop at. The registration office people made sure we understood that.
So at 8:30, we are on the road. SJPP is extremely pretty and our spirits are up. The air is cool but not cold at all. Walking out of the village is easy, but of course very quickly, it starts to go up. And up. After half an hour, we definitely look down at SJPP behind us. Mostly, I am walking some distance ahead of Dale. He has too much baggage and knows it. He is stuck with a hand bag and swears he’s throwing things away that night. He’s carrying 13 kilos I think, which is a bit too much. I am not even at 10, which is perfect for me. After another half-hour, the landscape are already the prettiest I have ever seen. I am however showing signs of fatigue and Dale is catching up with me.
To his suggestion, I remove my heavier shirt which I was SURE I would need up in the moutain, and go for a simple t-shirt. Muuuuch better, but some of the damage is done. From there, Dale mostly walks in front of me, but I can see him ahead. That is, until another hour after that.
At this point, we are probably 600 meters high and we can see valleys far down to the right. The French Pyrénées are stunning. I am not a religious person, but I stop to think if God exists, this is as close to proof as I’m ever going to get. He’s an Artist. Unfortunately, I am not spending much time dreaming this way, as I am beyound fatigued. Two hours after departure, with Dale who knows where ahead, there is a sign point up a path that is not a road. I know we have to get there, so I start walking up. After a while though, I am SO WAY UP, it seems, that I am feeling terrible. Exhausted, and starting to doubt myself and everything.
What am I doing here ? Why am I even kidding myself ? My legs are shaking and the sun is hitting me, through my hat and clothes. I sit down on the side of the path, overlooking the most gorgeous landscape you can think of. Wow. Merde. Did I take a wrong turn ? I can wait here for another pilgrim to pass by me. Nobody comes. The Orrisson albergue is supposed to be up here but I feel lost. Do I go on stubbornly or walk back to that sign, way down ? I am hungry too. Nothing around here but landscapes.
I sit there maybe 10 minutes, wanting to go home. I swear, if there is a helicopter coming here, I’ll get on it and never come back. This is insane.
So what do I do ? Let’s eat some almonds from my pockets and a few cranberries. I still have some water. Calm down. I can survive 2 days with what I have. Except water but I am not in that bad a shape. Orrisson has to be up here, right ? So I get up, look back, and walk on and up. Funny thing is, 15 minutes later, I meet Dale, taking a break and chatting with some lady who just told him she saw me but that I was hours behind. Strange. I am happy again, I am not lost and incapable. I can do this. I eat half an orange to congratulate myself.
After going up some more, at maybe 800 meters, we get to Orrisson. They have sleeping places but it’s only lunchtime and they’re full already. No worries. we eat our ham sandwiches, not the best I’ve had, but sufficient. I drink enough water to drown a whale and meet this strange French man in his fifties. Big mustache, and know-it-all attitude, of course. He tells me I should put a bit of salt in my water, to help preserve it better in my body. I doubt it, but he turned out to be right after I checked, several days later. I never knew his name.
After maybe 45 minutes break, we start again. Oh yes, up some more. The afternoon is a blur, but I need to borrow water from Dale a few times. He’s not loosing his water much, and I definitely am. He graciously offered and I did not refuse. We come up to a famous cross, and later the virgin of Orrisson, which I missed and was pointed to it by Dale when I caught up with me. Luckily, I was 5 minutes away, so yes, I walk back to it for a picture. Amazing.
On we walk and just like that, we cross into Spain, with a very welcome water fountain close by, where we take another break. That’s where I realize how red my arms are getting. Whoops. I put cream on. Believe it or not, we’re not even done climbing. It’s always simple walk with a slope, but it goes on and on. We’re both VERY tired, and feel depressed every time we realize we’re about to go down a while, only to come back up some more. The ultimate high is at 1400 meters, but having gone down and up several times, it may be several more hundred meters total climb.
At the col, we are completely exhausted and ready to be done. We take pictures of beautiful Spain behind us and feel extreme Pride. It’s about 5:00 and we only have to go down from here. Wow. Down is hard. Most of the way, I am quite ahead of Dale, as his knees are killing him. Mine aren’t bad, but I’ll pay for that speed with blisters. More on these some other time. We walk down several hundred meters in two hours, to finally get into Roncesvalles. A quaint village where actually a LOT of pilgrims start their journey.
Dinner (fish, fries, wine) is served at a small restaurant where we eat with two French men. We don’t talk too much, as we are both wiped out. One of the French men is Michel, who I’ll meet again several times on the Way, a quiet guy who turns out to be a real gentleman, I think.
We go to bed around 10PM, in a very large albergue (can host hundreds !), in a room of maybe 12 people. This is still all new to me, and it feels weird to sleep with strangers so close by. As in almost everywhere on the Camino, the room is filled with bunk-beds and I can use a wool blanket and a pillow. I don’t bother washing my clothes, as it’s too late for anything to dry and I have enough for 2 more days. I sleep fine, waking up several times and feeling lost every time.
So this is the Camino, I think. So far, I have not enjoyed myself as much as I thought I would. I had too much going on, I was exhausted all day, and I just wanted to quit, 2 hours after start. Now, I don’t want to quit. I am proud of the most difficult day of my life, and I feel confidant. Dale is an excellent traveling companion, I must say. Not pushing, not dragging, and of good spirit. We can do this, then. We are Pilgrims. Oh my God I’m in Spain.